If I wait here, how long until you pass? I have the will to stand still, but not to move. I am waiting for a sign. A book of 100 rooms. To tell me what to do. Do nothing. The rules of the universe are mine to abide. Listen to the therapist, she knows best. Live your life by the rules. Do what the future version of you wants. But not now. Now you must relinquish control and stand still. Do not make a sound. Avoid all eye contact. Don’t count the cards. No tricks. No spells. Just be still.